The next chapter into my life , because I am realizing that I am ready for the biggest step in my life from when I was in oranim (volunteering with children) and when I was working in spa2go (dead sea product chart) I finally realized that I am ready for the new world.

I realized on one thing that my new life will become even more before then I worked my way up to the new chapter in my life like a fairy tale book that I feel I am ready even and yes I have been waiting for this moment to come already and tell you the truth I think that it has finally come I got my wish coming true everyone gets their turn  and I have got my turn  when I was in oranim and when I was spa2go that got me on where I am today.

I didn't realize I would really be set up with an amazing man in the world. I didn't think I would my true love ,but finally realized that I am being set up for over the years  and that I finally reconnecting with my true love when we hugged heavily that means something when he hugs me heavily and when I hug him heavily I hug men all the time but not the way I hugged him. 

I realized that I am already on my way to the next chapter in my life

I never thought I would see him again and finally saw him fell in love instantly with this man 

I am ready to be a wife and mother I don't rush though , but know what I want and need in life though that is who I am one thing I don't let idiots ruin my life I don't people hurt my life back in the days tell you truth not even know just to let you know I had a shield back in the days that made me a winner in the first place 

not only a virginity 

my personalities and values

my heart and soul

the way I dress and have respect for myself

respect for other people

I talk right 

speak the right grammars 

when i rap i don't really rap just play around 

I like having fun in life 

that brought me into a good life

didn't care what all those jealous girls think about me 

there were times i wanted to be like other girls but realized i don't need to tell you the truth i don't want to be them I laugh at them tell them let me show you one thing people i am a winner and you are a loser.

I realized on one thing tell you the truth girls back in the school were jealous from me , because a lot men ran after me even in the high school not only the way i dressed and the way i talk to people even teachers and principals are always impressed with me another reason why I am always on time never let myself be late to school or work if I am late or being fired I cried so bad it breaks my heart so badly my heart would break into pieces even I would feel destroyed too, because never failed ever in my life not even in school I didn't really have a job in school the reason I didn't really have a job in school I focused on school and life not only that I didn't want something get in my way I knew that school is more of my job and grades is my paycheck even so that's the reason I wanted a job back in the days , but I understand my parents too what good things they want in my life I wasn't a stupid girl I wasn't perfect I just would tell you I had a depression inside the whole time I smiled too but in the same time had a depression inside I never wanted to die though. I realize on one thing is life is beautiful not easy but I love life anyway and realized on one thing even that I would be a good mother and wife 

when i get married even i am in good hands with the right man who would cherish me and love me for me.

He is even the best gift in my life and that I wouldn't trade him for anything

and realized when he protects me he wins my heart too

the way he looked for me all these years won my heart too 

i realize when he puts him arms around me that makes me the butterflies in my stomach too and at the same time realize that he is the one for me especially when hugs heavily.

I realized I knew about my dreams and what I always dreamed about , being a mother and a wife

being an author 

being something good 

even dreamed of how the wedding would look like too a big wedding like a fairytale wedding , because I really love the fairytale weddings

even build my generations with him too like to combine it all together.

I realized one thing thing from time I volunteered in a program called oranim

worked with children I wasn't using them in the wrong way just wanted to find more opportunities and see if i would be a good mother somedays too not only that wanted to work my way up to a new chapter in my life

I had a guidance Asi cohen was a wonderful guidance in our lives in ness ziona, but realized from him I learned a lot secretly he looked at me the most and knew what he was doing to me at first wanted me to be ready for the new world too

when I worked with the children then I saw something interesting they saw me as a mother figure and made realized that I will be a good mother actually one of the best mothers out there. They made me realize there is so many good things in me and how they were impressed about me that made me smile so badly never thought anything about myself like that before.

When Asi got me to work in the city hall too he picked me one of the first ones who get the opportunities from that time tell you the truth he looked he was really impressed from the start when I arrived to the apartment to the program itself and noticing he was a father figure too 

I realized one oohing that he helped me work my way up too that I would love to tell him thank you too when I was in the program I noticed one thing I was one of the luckiest person on earth to get accepted to the program , because this is my lucky charm I mean I knew something good will come out me some how 

When I worked with children I felt like I am a popular person too I was smiling  and very happy to work with them that got me to my happiness even.

They welcomed me into their lives I love those kids I am telling you the truth I am very honest with you I call them like my little siblings (brothers and sisters) I make them as if they are my family members.

If someone mess with them it's they messing with me

nobody mess with these kids they are my siblings i love them to death these are bright and beautiful children with wonderful future ahead infect guess what I did to them I never let them give up even I even fight for them for the rights 

I realized one thing that it's good , because I was not always like that myself I didn't always believed or have a confidence myself 

I didn't want them to end up in the wrong life I meant to bring them into the right life when I fought for them

When they would say oh this is hard I say it's okay life is hard you cant give up on life , because you give up on life life will give on you. You cant tell yourselves you cant do it you can do it

if you need help i am here for you i am never letting you go i am always by your side too in fact i want you to sound it out too but if you have any trouble let me know I read for you sometimes but tell you truth i want you guys to read it , because i want you to understand what is in the story too if i keep reading for you with tell you the truth i like reading things myself but i want you to ready and understand things too.

In fact in school i didn't know so much of bibi's brother even i know he has siblings but once we got to that story i read it myself i didn't go to a jewish school so some how i didn't know much but from another side there are things i did know about the war and other things though.

When I got a letter from two children together and it was a gift from heart it made cry in a happiness it made me realize something to I was like wow I see something good in me it's like i got a trophy or something 

it made me feel like a winner 

i was always asking how come i got this and nobody else did ?

but realized the way i gave my heart to these wonderful children made me get this 

made me understand something is good about me 

i didn't mean to brag at all but felt so good about myself and really felt proud of myself that i never felt before never got that in high school even but realized from those kids actually something is good inside me that brought me a happiness a joy in my life that makes me miss them so much, but i want them to really find more other opportunities in life I don't want to see them give up on life i don't want them to end up as a criminal even the reason I would actually ask them what do they want to be when you grow up? some said professor and some said a singer or actress/actors

even be a teacher so when they said that I meant to tell them something to make them realize what you need to in order to get there work your way by studying really good and focusing on school

life as well

hang out with your friends and family too

dont rush so much into growing up even stay young 

when someone put me aging cream couple months before i arrived into florida

actually when i arrived from israel i got it on my face sometimes made me feel scared it made me feel old even

I was like wanting to give a message to these kids too

I would never want to see them be a drugatic too

if i see that happen i would cry

feel like i want to grab it out of the hands i wont hurt them make them to realize something

I am not controlling you just fighting for you rights 

saving you and your life as well.

Another reason that got me on working with the children , because my grandmother herself

she works with children herself actually that is one of things that really impressed me about my grandmother and really call a big hero in my life too.

She is someone that I always wanted to be like 

the way she stronger and healthy doesn't let anything stand her way even that would got me not to give up too

that is where got me not let anything stand in my way too

to be a stronger person too

i remember when she had stomach cancer didn't let that stand her way

she has high blood pressure doesn't let that stand her way too

that is the reason I looked up to her as a great role model in our lives even

i never told her that I am impressed with my grandmother the way she stands up on her two feet too

it's hard for too yeah she knows that never gives up though thats what i admire about too i realized it myself too

that is why i call my grandmother a hero in our lives one of the best people that is in our lives she fights for our rights too.

she wouldn't let me walk out of the house with the wrong outfits even i completely understand there too and respect her too

she has great since of style in fact i have her taste even.