when i arrived to florida, when i left florida

When I first arrived to Florida and got myself off the plane I was the most happiest woman on the planet and I was so happy in fact I rushed off the plane even to come out smell the air and walk on the land too. Another thing that I could tell you I arrived all of the sudden I felt a welcomeness like I am home too and not only that I felt like I just gained another family like more brothers and sisters plus true came into my eyes when i first came out of the airport and once i got the car i already saw some sparkles in each others eyes, some chemistry between us, the connections, reconnection, and set ups along the way. I couldn't believe what this would happen to me at all even , but guess what it happened really quickly even I came into the apartment all of sudden i get this welcomeness into the apartment everyone starts hugging me so tightly even not only that I already had guys flirting with me even in the apartments too not only that they pulled me into the porch and had some conversation even like flintiness and familyness around me even it ways so amazing even it never happened to me like that in michigan even i was feeling in depression but once i got to florida i was hiding it a little but everyone started make me smile and happy so badly that i started to forget about my past even. One other I could tell you 3 days later Mikey proposed to me in front of every single people even across the street from the apartment even told me to stand in the living room i had no idea what was really going to happen i stand there i saw a flash light in front of my eyes i was surprised by too he asked "Will you marry me?" I was like crying in a happiness even i was like wow i said "yes"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I didn't think this would happen to me even i didn't think i would get engaged even realize florida was a good place for me in the states i am talking about I was like smiling so badly saying here that i finally got my turn i finally got engaged even i was the most happiest girl in the world like tell you the truth when guy himself asked about indiana even i said no indiana looks like a boring place, but i said no way on indiana yes to florida i knew florida looks like a better place for more opportunities ,better life, and the right choice. I didn't think I would fall in love though but i did. i think i could tell you made the right choice and i started going on dates even i loved it wish i could do it even. I was like omg I look so attractive, i felt so beautiful even in my own skin too, and not only that i felt something good about myself that i never felt ever even. I went out to parties, the beach, mall, work (working on the chart of the dead sea as in "spatogo" i got my wish come true when i worked with spa2go too i loved spa2go for a long time even and decided to finally put my foot down and take this job i got it i was screaming on top of lungs even i got the job!!!!!!!:) not only that i was like florida here i come ready or not i coming for you. Another i could tell something I got to go to the clubs with 4 goregous men at the club and a lot of girls were even jealous i was like amazed about one thing when i heard in the club i heard something good about myself a lot were talking about my features, my body, and that i am a virgin too and a lot of random men were staring at me and asked me dance even i dance with one random i loved even danced with mikey, eden, guy, and daniel not trying to make anyone jealous but felt so good about myself even i started to even smile in the club even that i didn't expect to walk out of the club and yea it was true even before we went to the club mikey saw me the way i dressed during the engagement even loved the way i looked and my high heels too guess what "ben zona" like he was really in love me and flirting with me too and not that it really dragged mikey so badly even like i wanted to impressed mikey the most but other men even too i wanted people to see the good person here.
When I was dancing with the men I felt alive even i felt something good here like i am even being actually respected and appreciated too that what i look for in friends and even men that i date too. I was so happy i could even tell you 1000 times even omg is this really happening to me ? this wasn't so much like that back in the school years even so much sometimes but most of the times not really.
In Michigan I had been feeling more haunting and more of living in a nazi land you what I mean? Yeah believe you understand me and I don't find so much of a big jewish community that really hurted me inside even , because i am not against anyone or religion i just wanted to keep the Judaism alive and keep the connections stronger , because here in ann arbor especially and lansing too actually basic all michigan is not the place for me anyway so I picked a better place even. When I arrived to florida one thing was amazed me i could even tell you 1000 times and even million of times how much i was amazed when i have gained another family, more siblings (like brothers and sisters), and a mother figure too that was so amazing to me wish that would happen again in the nearest future too. I had already finding my way back to fort myers even I need the yellow brick road the path to florida again not only that I truly miss florida so badly and it is even in my mind so badly one thing i could tell you when I stepped into the airport of florida , stepped into the airplane of delta i felt unhappy even like a depression has appeared in front of my eyes even when the plane was already boarding flight i started to stare at florida itself the airport with the tears (heavily) i started to cry inside my mind even but what i could do i didn't really want to go i just protected the people that i loved and my classmate "the idiot" that doesn't have a brain even was actually running after me in florida 2 or 3 days later i got so embarassed of what the mess he and his mother caused me especially after all i have done for him in the past that is what he repays me in return "idiots" when I the plane landed in michigan airport guess what? can i tell you something ? I felt like a part of me isn't here like some part of me is still in florida (especially fort myers) too  that i already felt like a broken person inside like as if my heart broke into pieces as if a broken puzzle one other thing I came into the taxi the metro car guess what I was unhappy in that car even another should tell you ? I fell a sleep almost in car I came home happy to see my parents and my sister at the time , but tell you the i wasn't happen in michigan i even wanted them to visit me or even like in fort myers too , because i fell in love with the place even that i keep saying to my mom , dad, and even my brother how much i love the place even i kept i fell deeply love with the place itself. I was like a puzzle put back into pieces even when first arriving to florida with a welcome (open ) arms of people and the land itself here too.
I came into my parents car guess what? i was sad and a broken person inside.
I could tell you when i was in my parents car going with my mother to starbucks i don't have a problem with starbucks itself here what i had in my mind even though i arrived that day even guess what?? florida was on my mind, the dead sea (spatogo), and the people that i was with i missed too. I truly saw myself unhappy so badly when i arrived at the time i actually wanted to wish one thing to change back the clock (the time) itself and stay in florida i had the idea in my mind to live there really long time i don't know how long at first but finally arrived fell in love with that got me in my mind for wanting to live there even longer but had some embarrassment i am not talking about the dead sea people itself here i got hurt too i didn't even tell him to come i didn't know he would run after with his mother even i was so completely in shocked like noticing that something is about to hurt me but started to hurt more other people that i wish i could kick ass even and say i hate you so badly why did you do this me? i know you have been nasty to me all these years while all of sudden you come back into my life even why all of sudden i get a job in another state you run after me like idiots and not only hurt me but hurted the people i loved so badly even wow what did you do? especially i was working and especially got a job that i fell in love that i was waiting this whole tire time and you ruined my life. Wow I don't deserve it I was so like the nicest girl i would never hurt a soul even. The people that I loved didn't deserve it why , because of israel too not only that i am a sephardic girl the rest besides guy were sephardics that we had to get hurt for nothing. All of the sudden you the "idiot" and his "idiot girlfriend too" guess what i didn't tell them in florida i was too scared to say something about my past that kind of got to me sometimes too didn't let that get in the way even i had some shields that i thank so badly even. he and his girlfriend were always driving by my house and even his mother too asking me so many wrong informations even that didn't let my life go down once i got so excited i didn't really tell on Facebook i just got excited i didn't tell anyone in ann arbor even but once i arrived i started to change my status (current city) because i fell in love instantly believe me i didn't want this happen but they were after all these years and hurt me in the heart that i ran away from michigan from all the bad things going on in my life , focus on my life , opportunities even, and more other things i wanted to escape even not to use the spa2go for bad things to keep even the bad things off my mind even and you come and ruin it for me that really got me to come and i am waiting for the moment to come clean my parents noticed something wrong the way i lost weight even i went to the doctors too they something wrong in me through their eyes guess what i am 96 pounds hate you for it stupid people. I left actually to try to talk to my parents face to face i wanted to actually tell in the apartment when my parents were the phone i got scared too that i had to go all the way back to michigan but didn't get the chance even my mother was the first who saw me come into the house even and stared me even with the biggest shocked ever and cried so badly about my weight even she already started saying doctor in her mind. She was like hurt on my weight went down like that I tried to tell but it got hard for me to explain to them i know how to talk i know good grammars but the way it happened that i completely hurt inside i didn't tell my parents yet that i have been having bad veisions and bad dreams even I am suffering minor injuries still and my parents don't know that part yet i am waiting for some witnesses to come to my parents so they wont think i that i am a liar i am more the honest and trustworthy person. Then my dad came into the house guess what he got shocked and cried right away "doctor in the mind" asked me what happened i stood there like scared to even say something both of parents were scared of my bones not only that guess what my lungs shows up really well went to starbucks and other places guess what happen there ? everyone started freak out even and they kept talking even out loud too about my health I didn't even cry i understood i didn't mean to scare them.
One thing that even know I have florida in my mind still and guess what florida was a blessing in my life that i miss it wish i could have a shooting star wish for to come back to florida and to the company again even i beg you ram and guy even. I wanted to relax and calm myself down but when they came i started to faint 21 times along with others too.. IDIOTS YOU OWE ME SOMETHING YOU MONEY YOU IDIOTS IN THE WORLD THAT I WILL NEVER FORGIVE ! I don't even care about you guys anymore you are out of my life even stay away from me and the people that i love so badly . When I left florida there was some plan there too I didn't expect this kind of a plan even to happen in florida or coming back to michigan what a welcome back i had there a nightmare and basically fainted in my own room couple times i was like why is this happening to me? especially i am not hurting a soul idiots i am always nice and give it with my heart did they tell you that in the past even what i have done for you idiot child? believe me this why you did this plans on me the most in first place you are jealous of me, you know i come from a good family and better values even i know how to talk right i don't hurt a soul, people respect me and appreciate me. tell you the truth idiots i was the popular in school not you you are one trashy people that hurts us all for nothing because jealous and hate people for nothing when sephardics and Ashkenazis are basically the same people some from europe , middle east, south america , or somewhere you idiots not only that guess what we are better then you another why you are jealous we are stronger people that survives no offense Israelis are stronger then american jews wow everyone basically saved my life and i saved theirs too that we stuck together the best thing got us all to survive there not you guys you guys basically didn't survive but one thing i could tell you did you notice one thing you getting me even closer to my true love and to the wonderful people from my job even? did you ever realize we are stars and we are better people with classier looks we care about ourselves!! BITCH DONT MESS WITH THE BULLS! because when you mess with us here you messing with the wrong people even guess what you life is completely over and you get a revenge !
you shouldn't have start the war in the first place you looked for war actually no offense even the arabs no who you are and not only that even the arabs are better people then you and not only a lot of arab men dig me too
you know how many men flirted with me this whole tire time back in the days , but some people kind of got in my way into happiness but didn't let that close the door on me i mean not let that stand in my way even that i want tell you bitches you know one thing i am a winner and you are losers guess what you messed with the wrong people guess what can i tell you something? God saved my life here too more then yours when you go a good person god himself gives best gift in return god rewards the people who have been good all these years and not for the naughty ones idiots thanks for giving me my good life and helped me work my way up by being idiots at me for many years you know you are a jew act like nazis at everyone even arabs don't act like nazis in the israel and arab world your ass would be beaten to death even so don't mess with us stupid people.
When i left florida my life some how felt like my life went upside down like my life was about to fall but didn't let that happen didn't let it stand in my realize there is help along the way even i see god is watching over me along with others too. thank you for being the idiots guess what you are the most idiotest people in the world actually made me into a better life and up my way into the next chapter i am on to a new journey even that i wont look back on this i maybe be haunted but other then that you guys wont be in the picture anymore. I hope to come back to florida again soon in the nearest future I WISH I WISH I WISH I WISH I WISH I WISH TO COME TO FLORIDA . I wish to see the people that i love the amazing people see the person that i am in love with (my true love) and wish to see the mother figure too!.. If they really would appear in front of my eyes i would be shocked and surprised but at the same time i would be the most happiest woman alive and let the idiots get arrest in real prison even not the house arrest more somewhere there. tell you the truth i gained from this even the journey too.

Natan, not only my brother , but one of the father figures in my life and my best friends too.

I believe in one thing that I am one of the most luckiest people in the world to have an amazing brother like Natan , because he really an amazing person in my life, because of him I am in a good place in my life too he fights for my rights and very protective person. Another thing I know one thing I look like my older brother a lot I love the bondings that we have that I truly miss a lot.

Natan the is a reason for him being in my life too if it wasn't for him i wouldn't be where i am today too

he is my hero

knows what's best for me and i truly appreciate my brother a lot for, because he wants to be a stronger  and healthy person.

Natan

The next chapter into my life , because I am realizing that I am ready for the biggest step in my life from when I was in oranim (volunteering with children) and when I was working in spa2go (dead sea product chart) I finally realized that I am ready for the new world.

I realized on one thing that my new life will become even more before then I worked my way up to the new chapter in my life like a fairy tale book that I feel I am ready even and yes I have been waiting for this moment to come already and tell you the truth I think that it has finally come I got my wish coming true everyone gets their turn  and I have got my turn  when I was in oranim and when I was spa2go that got me on where I am today.

I didn't realize I would really be set up with an amazing man in the world. I didn't think I would my true love ,but finally realized that I am being set up for over the years  and that I finally reconnecting with my true love when we hugged heavily that means something when he hugs me heavily and when I hug him heavily I hug men all the time but not the way I hugged him. 

I realized that I am already on my way to the next chapter in my life

I never thought I would see him again and finally saw him fell in love instantly with this man 

I am ready to be a wife and mother I don't rush though , but know what I want and need in life though that is who I am one thing I don't let idiots ruin my life I don't people hurt my life back in the days tell you truth not even know just to let you know I had a shield back in the days that made me a winner in the first place 

not only a virginity 

my personalities and values

my heart and soul

the way I dress and have respect for myself

respect for other people

I talk right 

speak the right grammars 

when i rap i don't really rap just play around 

I like having fun in life 

that brought me into a good life

didn't care what all those jealous girls think about me 

there were times i wanted to be like other girls but realized i don't need to tell you the truth i don't want to be them I laugh at them tell them let me show you one thing people i am a winner and you are a loser.

I realized on one thing tell you the truth girls back in the school were jealous from me , because a lot men ran after me even in the high school not only the way i dressed and the way i talk to people even teachers and principals are always impressed with me another reason why I am always on time never let myself be late to school or work if I am late or being fired I cried so bad it breaks my heart so badly my heart would break into pieces even I would feel destroyed too, because never failed ever in my life not even in school I didn't really have a job in school the reason I didn't really have a job in school I focused on school and life not only that I didn't want something get in my way I knew that school is more of my job and grades is my paycheck even so that's the reason I wanted a job back in the days , but I understand my parents too what good things they want in my life I wasn't a stupid girl I wasn't perfect I just would tell you I had a depression inside the whole time I smiled too but in the same time had a depression inside I never wanted to die though. I realize on one thing is life is beautiful not easy but I love life anyway and realized on one thing even that I would be a good mother and wife 

when i get married even i am in good hands with the right man who would cherish me and love me for me.

He is even the best gift in my life and that I wouldn't trade him for anything

and realized when he protects me he wins my heart too

the way he looked for me all these years won my heart too 

i realize when he puts him arms around me that makes me the butterflies in my stomach too and at the same time realize that he is the one for me especially when hugs heavily.

I realized I knew about my dreams and what I always dreamed about , being a mother and a wife

being an author 

being something good 

even dreamed of how the wedding would look like too a big wedding like a fairytale wedding , because I really love the fairytale weddings

even build my generations with him too like to combine it all together.

I realized one thing thing from time I volunteered in a program called oranim

worked with children I wasn't using them in the wrong way just wanted to find more opportunities and see if i would be a good mother somedays too not only that wanted to work my way up to a new chapter in my life

I had a guidance Asi cohen was a wonderful guidance in our lives in ness ziona, but realized from him I learned a lot secretly he looked at me the most and knew what he was doing to me at first wanted me to be ready for the new world too

when I worked with the children then I saw something interesting they saw me as a mother figure and made realized that I will be a good mother actually one of the best mothers out there. They made me realize there is so many good things in me and how they were impressed about me that made me smile so badly never thought anything about myself like that before.

When Asi got me to work in the city hall too he picked me one of the first ones who get the opportunities from that time tell you the truth he looked he was really impressed from the start when I arrived to the apartment to the program itself and noticing he was a father figure too 

I realized one oohing that he helped me work my way up too that I would love to tell him thank you too when I was in the program I noticed one thing I was one of the luckiest person on earth to get accepted to the program , because this is my lucky charm I mean I knew something good will come out me some how 

When I worked with children I felt like I am a popular person too I was smiling  and very happy to work with them that got me to my happiness even.

They welcomed me into their lives I love those kids I am telling you the truth I am very honest with you I call them like my little siblings (brothers and sisters) I make them as if they are my family members.

If someone mess with them it's they messing with me

nobody mess with these kids they are my siblings i love them to death these are bright and beautiful children with wonderful future ahead infect guess what I did to them I never let them give up even I even fight for them for the rights 

I realized one thing that it's good , because I was not always like that myself I didn't always believed or have a confidence myself 

I didn't want them to end up in the wrong life I meant to bring them into the right life when I fought for them

When they would say oh this is hard I say it's okay life is hard you cant give up on life , because you give up on life life will give on you. You cant tell yourselves you cant do it you can do it

if you need help i am here for you i am never letting you go i am always by your side too in fact i want you to sound it out too but if you have any trouble let me know I read for you sometimes but tell you truth i want you guys to read it , because i want you to understand what is in the story too if i keep reading for you with tell you the truth i like reading things myself but i want you to ready and understand things too.

In fact in school i didn't know so much of bibi's brother even i know he has siblings but once we got to that story i read it myself i didn't go to a jewish school so some how i didn't know much but from another side there are things i did know about the war and other things though.

When I got a letter from two children together and it was a gift from heart it made cry in a happiness it made me realize something to I was like wow I see something good in me it's like i got a trophy or something 

it made me feel like a winner 

i was always asking how come i got this and nobody else did ?

but realized the way i gave my heart to these wonderful children made me get this 

made me understand something is good about me 

i didn't mean to brag at all but felt so good about myself and really felt proud of myself that i never felt before never got that in high school even but realized from those kids actually something is good inside me that brought me a happiness a joy in my life that makes me miss them so much, but i want them to really find more other opportunities in life I don't want to see them give up on life i don't want them to end up as a criminal even the reason I would actually ask them what do they want to be when you grow up? some said professor and some said a singer or actress/actors

even be a teacher so when they said that I meant to tell them something to make them realize what you need to in order to get there work your way by studying really good and focusing on school

life as well

hang out with your friends and family too

dont rush so much into growing up even stay young 

when someone put me aging cream couple months before i arrived into florida

actually when i arrived from israel i got it on my face sometimes made me feel scared it made me feel old even

I was like wanting to give a message to these kids too

I would never want to see them be a drugatic too

if i see that happen i would cry

feel like i want to grab it out of the hands i wont hurt them make them to realize something

I am not controlling you just fighting for you rights 

saving you and your life as well.

Another reason that got me on working with the children , because my grandmother herself

she works with children herself actually that is one of things that really impressed me about my grandmother and really call a big hero in my life too.

She is someone that I always wanted to be like 

the way she stronger and healthy doesn't let anything stand her way even that would got me not to give up too

that is where got me not let anything stand in my way too

to be a stronger person too

i remember when she had stomach cancer didn't let that stand her way

she has high blood pressure doesn't let that stand her way too

that is the reason I looked up to her as a great role model in our lives even

i never told her that I am impressed with my grandmother the way she stands up on her two feet too

it's hard for too yeah she knows that never gives up though thats what i admire about too i realized it myself too

that is why i call my grandmother a hero in our lives one of the best people that is in our lives she fights for our rights too.

she wouldn't let me walk out of the house with the wrong outfits even i completely understand there too and respect her too

she has great since of style in fact i have her taste even.

Friends 

when I look at friends I don't hang out with them really quick

I look before I pick my friends 

knowing how to leave people out

I didn't really care so much of popularity or nerds even

what i cared about more

was the personalities and values 

making people smile and happy

i hate seeing people cry 

i hate seeing people hurt 

friends not all of them you could trust

a lot of them betray you

and hurt you 

spread rumors like cancer 

you want someone that you could trust

even if you had 1 or 2 friends that is enough

even if you have no friends

it's better then ones would hurt you

that is where i saved my ass too

i didn't get into fights in school

i never got beaten up at all

i was being respect and appreciated for the person that i am

i was really smart on the kind of people that i was hanging out with 

i am really picky when it comes to people and many other things too

popularity and nerds you shouldn't even be there 

i think you should care about peoples hearts

about the feelings too

If there wasn't anything like that in school 

I would believe there will be less people getting hurt 

people wouldn't be killing each other

wouldn't even be jealousy as well

friends

should be trustworthy people

but not always happening

some are backstabbers

some are 

honest and trustworthy.

Model

Model

something that I always have wanted to my whole tire life, because of my amazing that I have

I have nothing to hide I am one the luckiest woman to have amazing body 

a lot of girls are jealous 

they would die for it

I believe I could be a good role model to younger girls by becoming a model showing something good about myself that would make them feel good about themselves too.

When I go natural too I would like in the photos 

to be natural and not wear make up in the photo

I want to show the world what I have to offer

what kind of body I have ,but one thing I would go with the right clothes too , because I am being a good role and influences on younger girls.

I want to be a model let the men see what's good about me too

they will fall in love with me 

especially my true love.

I always posing in the showers and sometimes in my room too.

When I take pictures on my computer I am posing there too.

If I get an offer somewhere I would be more then excited

I would take the offer it depends where though

the clothing stores I love and a big fan of

if someone tells me to wear a swimsuit too I would do it in a heart beat, because I need to feel good about myself always.

I believe I am a beautiful girl 

I am classy

I don't wear something that would harm me

I like to put myself in good situations 

show me in a good way

I believe that I am one of the luckiest woman in the world

God gave me a great body figure ever

you can't blame for it , because it was a gift from god.

I wouldn't go completely nude , but I want to show what I have to offer to the world it would make my life easier. 

One thing I don't like are paparazzi so much around me , because they get into your business even if you are a model I wont give them too much information at all

I will tell them one thing get lost idiots , but other then that I think being a model would be a good experience I don't want to be anorexic to be a model.

I want to be eating regularly like would be allowed to eat the good foods that I love so bad even junk foods too.

I believe

I believe 

I believe in many things 

in God as well

another thing I believe I could do anything that my heart desires 

Maybe be an author 

a model

an actress 

a chief 

or maybe a mother and wife ( a good one)

I believe I am a beautiful girl

with a good heart and soul

even with a great personalities and values that makes me be something good

even the pictures shows who I am too

never lies to you either

I didn't always have confidence in myself 

but I had help with that along the way

I have someone who gives me the confidence 

believed in me 

that brought me to a better place today

I didn't think I could make it on the chart , but I made it

I am not a loser 

I am a fighter 

I am a strong girl

not really weak since i have met mikey and the rest of the people from the spatogo company:)

when I was in oranim as well

Asi cohen believed in me too so that's how i got into a better place as well

never let me give up ever

He believed in me that I would be good working with the children it is amazing that someone noticed the person that i am and where i come from too.

I believe there is a surprise for me coming along soon 

like something that god has for me in stores 

since i have been a good girl all my life just don't like when people control and take advantage of me 

but i was good 

i believe ness ziona was the best place 

and same with fort myers 

gave me the calm and relaxing 

i was in good hands too

in a better crowd with the right people.

I believe that I have a lot to offer to my true love

I believe in long marriages too 

I am good with children too , because i love children to death that i would sacrifice for them too

I would give them my world and life.

I am a protector for them too.